As I sit here at LGA, with a 4 hour layover before I head off to my daughter’s graduation, I can tell you that my stomach is in knots. I’m going back to the place I lived for many years, raised my kids and got divorced. I had loved living there until then. Now it is hard to be there, like I am intruding on a life that is no longer mine. Truth is, I’m scared to death.
Of course it is my pattern to prepare for the worst–and then some. I think Buddhists have it right to stay in the moment–focused only on what is right in front of them. I wonder if Buddhists get headaches cause I sure have one now. I don’t want to focus on it though.
I read a quip on twitter once that fits me. “How Jews deliver bad news–Someone calls and says ‘Start worrying. Details to follow.’”
Off to find some lunch. Wishing everyone a glorious weekend–and me too.
Remind yourself you have every right to be there. The occasion is not about you anyway, it’s about your daughter. Your example to her is what will stick in the future. Hold you head up girl. She needs her mum at her best. It will rub off on everyone that you’ve moved on.
Thanks for that cyber-hug Mary. You are right, it’s not about me. I am blessed with the most supportive and wise followers. Thank you.
My thoughts and prayers are with you! I wish you only good things this weekend!
Marilyn, I once learned a meditation that sometimes helps when I’m afraid. I was taught to simply close my eyes and listen, deeply listen to everything, not voices, and certainly not my own voice in my head, instead creaking floors, flushing toilets, maybe birds, bugs, a breeze. the world going on about its business, identify and listen to the sounds. Even for five seconds, this can help me when I’m terrified.
God’s peace go with you, a quiet hand in your hand.
Janet
I think that your meditation is an excellent one and easy to remember. I will use it many times. Thank you for listening.
Being in an old place with new eyes would be sure to raise the anxiety level. I think you’ll be amazed at what you see.
I just read this quote, helps me to stay in the moment:
If it’s not happening now, it’s not happening.
Enjoy the weekend!